I have survived my first week back to school! It has been the most stressful week of my life, but I am still standing (well, really sitting). In addition to returning to school this week I also started working at the college. I am an SLA Leader and peer tutor.
As a SLA Leader I work with students that are in an enhanced math course. Three times a week I go with them to a regular math class and twice a week they meet with me for a math workshop. I assumed that the SLA part of my job would be the most difficult. But peer tutoring was not so easy! I was set up to tutor Algebra, Stats, and Pre-calculus. Well, I had a Pre-calc student from Hell! Plus, it has been two years since I took Pre-cal. So with his attitude and my memory it was not a pretty situation.
So since I have been in therapy I decided that instead of having a meltdown (like I would have previously done) because there was actually something that I may not be able to do (imagine that), I would instead go to my boss and let him know that I did not feel as if I was qualified to tutor Pre-cal. Of course I was a nervous wreck for the 12 hours prior, but I went in, told him my concerns, told him what I wanted and he was cool with it all!
I also decided to do a weigh in this morning and I am at 332. Which is pretty cool. I have been working on cutting down my sugar intake and it is going pretty good.
K
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
I will never......
I use to say I would never weigh over 200 lbs. Then after I reached 200 lbs I said I would never weigh over 250 lbs. Then after I hit 250 lbs I said I would never be 300 lbs. Well, at 300 lbs I said at least I am not 325 lbs. After reaching 328 lbs and staying around there for awhile I just figured I was good because at least I didn't weigh 330 lbs or 335 lbs or etc...
Well, after many weeks of living off of sugar and feeling like crap I decided to get on the scale. This morning I was 335.8 lbs! I even reset my scale and reweighed myself and up popped the same number! CRAP!
Why do I weigh 335.8 lbs. I would like to say it's because I have hypothyroidism and 2 weeks ago I found out my levels were all whack. I would like to blame it on that, but truth be told it is because of ME! I do not exercise, nor do I eat healthy.
I know that even though I have stopped drinking Pepsi, tea, and other sweet drinks I have started eating sugary processed junk like crazy! I use to believe that I was addicted to fried greasy foods and I may be, but I know for sure that right now sugar is my fix.
My friend (SMoore) told me that she had heard that one serving of Pepsi has like 10 teaspoons of sugar in it. And then when I went to tea, I know it had that much or more depending on who made it.
So what do I need to do? Can I limit my sugar intake? I don't know! Can I completely give up sugar? I don't know! I know it's an addiction and as with any addiction abstinence is the way to go. When I gave up Pepsi and tea, I just decided to do it and I did it.
But I sometimes wonder did I really do it when I just replaced it with another form of sugar. I really wasn't addicted to the Pepsi or the tea, just the sugar that was in it.
So what do I do?
I have to limit or completely eliminate my sugar intake.
My goal for this week.
*Limit my sugar intake
Long term goal.
*Completely eliminate my sugar intake.
K
Well, after many weeks of living off of sugar and feeling like crap I decided to get on the scale. This morning I was 335.8 lbs! I even reset my scale and reweighed myself and up popped the same number! CRAP!
Why do I weigh 335.8 lbs. I would like to say it's because I have hypothyroidism and 2 weeks ago I found out my levels were all whack. I would like to blame it on that, but truth be told it is because of ME! I do not exercise, nor do I eat healthy.
I know that even though I have stopped drinking Pepsi, tea, and other sweet drinks I have started eating sugary processed junk like crazy! I use to believe that I was addicted to fried greasy foods and I may be, but I know for sure that right now sugar is my fix.
My friend (SMoore) told me that she had heard that one serving of Pepsi has like 10 teaspoons of sugar in it. And then when I went to tea, I know it had that much or more depending on who made it.
So what do I need to do? Can I limit my sugar intake? I don't know! Can I completely give up sugar? I don't know! I know it's an addiction and as with any addiction abstinence is the way to go. When I gave up Pepsi and tea, I just decided to do it and I did it.
But I sometimes wonder did I really do it when I just replaced it with another form of sugar. I really wasn't addicted to the Pepsi or the tea, just the sugar that was in it.
So what do I do?
I have to limit or completely eliminate my sugar intake.
My goal for this week.
*Limit my sugar intake
Long term goal.
*Completely eliminate my sugar intake.
K
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Sugar Addiction...
Anyone have any advice on breaking a sugar addiction?
I seem to have one!
Hi, my name is Karina and I'm a sugar addict... Not very funny!
Any help is appreciated!
K
I seem to have one!
Hi, my name is Karina and I'm a sugar addict... Not very funny!
Any help is appreciated!
K
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Mid July
Well folks it's now mid July and I don't think that I have gotten the hang of this blogging thing yet. I am not very consistent and it sometimes feels like a chore to blog. The same goes for the weight loss! I am just not getting the hang of it.
I really do know how to lose weight, it's just doing it! Like yesterday, I went to the gym. I did 15 minutes on the bike, 15 minutes on the elliptical and 1/3 of a mile around the track. To me that seems like crap, but then I think about what I have been doing. Nothing! Compared to nothing, that stuff is awesome!
My eating is a mess! Movies last night and we had popcorn and candy. I got up this morning eating candy! I ate sugar all day! My belly is even hurting from eating so much sugar today.
I did have water at the movies. For the life of me I don't understand how it was so easy to give up Pepsi and tea, but I can't make the other changes I need to make to get this going in the right direction.
I know I still have a problem with wanting it NOW! I also know that to lose as much weight as I need to lose that it is going to take time, it's just telling myself that taking the time to do it is the right thing!
UGH! I need a new plan
K
I really do know how to lose weight, it's just doing it! Like yesterday, I went to the gym. I did 15 minutes on the bike, 15 minutes on the elliptical and 1/3 of a mile around the track. To me that seems like crap, but then I think about what I have been doing. Nothing! Compared to nothing, that stuff is awesome!
My eating is a mess! Movies last night and we had popcorn and candy. I got up this morning eating candy! I ate sugar all day! My belly is even hurting from eating so much sugar today.
I did have water at the movies. For the life of me I don't understand how it was so easy to give up Pepsi and tea, but I can't make the other changes I need to make to get this going in the right direction.
I know I still have a problem with wanting it NOW! I also know that to lose as much weight as I need to lose that it is going to take time, it's just telling myself that taking the time to do it is the right thing!
UGH! I need a new plan
K
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
First Missouri 60 goal reached
So I have reached one of my goals for the Missouri 60 challenge. It is not weight related but it did contribute to the chaos in my life.
Last summer my daughters and I moved in with my parents so that I could finish college without the burden of all that comes with living in my own house.
Well, we were each given a bedroom (3) and as anyone who moves knows going from a 4 bedroom house to 3 bedrooms can be cause for a lot of cramped spaces. Well, we did get rid of a lot of stuff, combined some with my parents and stored some.
But for some reason my room became the catch all room for things that I didn't know what to do with, things that I knew what to do with, but just hadn't done anything with yet and the catch all room for every thing the girls decided they did not want or that was taking up space in their rooms.
Needless to say my room was a cluttered mess! Not only did I have all that junk but I had a t.v., a computer with desk, an area for sewing and all my school stuff. Oh and a bed and dresser.
Well my room is not big at all! So it was very cramped and every time I would try to clean it, it was like a jig saw puzzle. Well, when the challenge came up I decided that first thing that I needed to clean was the room.
First I decided what I had to have, what I could live without and what was not even mine in the first place.
I got rid of the t.v. Packed away the sewing stuff and took the girl's stuff to storage. I now have my bed, a dresser, a new bookcase, my favorite green chair, and my laptop set up at a fold out table for studying.
It is still a bit cramped, but it's a small room, but it's CLEAN!! The chaos of my room is now gone! I can get things done in here, I don't have to search through every thing to find something and I just feel more at peace in here.
So one goal down, hundreds more to go!
K
Last summer my daughters and I moved in with my parents so that I could finish college without the burden of all that comes with living in my own house.
Well, we were each given a bedroom (3) and as anyone who moves knows going from a 4 bedroom house to 3 bedrooms can be cause for a lot of cramped spaces. Well, we did get rid of a lot of stuff, combined some with my parents and stored some.
But for some reason my room became the catch all room for things that I didn't know what to do with, things that I knew what to do with, but just hadn't done anything with yet and the catch all room for every thing the girls decided they did not want or that was taking up space in their rooms.
Needless to say my room was a cluttered mess! Not only did I have all that junk but I had a t.v., a computer with desk, an area for sewing and all my school stuff. Oh and a bed and dresser.
Well my room is not big at all! So it was very cramped and every time I would try to clean it, it was like a jig saw puzzle. Well, when the challenge came up I decided that first thing that I needed to clean was the room.
First I decided what I had to have, what I could live without and what was not even mine in the first place.
I got rid of the t.v. Packed away the sewing stuff and took the girl's stuff to storage. I now have my bed, a dresser, a new bookcase, my favorite green chair, and my laptop set up at a fold out table for studying.
It is still a bit cramped, but it's a small room, but it's CLEAN!! The chaos of my room is now gone! I can get things done in here, I don't have to search through every thing to find something and I just feel more at peace in here.
So one goal down, hundreds more to go!
K
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Thank you God!
I received this video from a friend of mine a few months ago. I watched it and thought to myself "good info" and then forgot all about it.
Well, that was until today. Today my 16 year old daughter was making french fries. She put a pan of oil on the stove and while she was cutting up the potatoes the oil got too hot and caught on fire. She grabbed the pan and took it over to the sink, turned the water on and put the pan under the water. The video shows what happened!
BY THE GRACE OF GOD MY DAUGHTER WAS NOT HURT!
Please share this video with others. By all accounts I should be at the burn center with my daughter right now! The kitchen is greasy and black but my precious child is safe.
THANK YOU GOD!
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
5 AM!
This morning I had my butt up at 4:30 am and was out the door within minutes to walk with Shott. We have been walking for the last few days and because her son had baseball practice tonight we would not be able to walk.
Well, she said lets just do it in the morning and get it over with. I didn't want to! But she challenged me, well, actually she wouldn't shut up until I said yes!
Needless to say it was AWFUL! I am NOT a morning person at all (she is). She is also in a lot better shape than I am. So she was happy and giddy and talked, talked and talked. Well, she talked until I yelled at her to shut up! She walked the rest of the way with her ipod on, but still had that darn smile on her face!
Now I understand that I am 300 plus pounds and that I haven't exercised in a long long time and that if I just stick it out within a couple weeks the little bit of walking we did will be a breeze and I will be thanking her bunches for pushing me. But OMGosh NOT AT 5AM!!!!
Well as hard as today was I am sticking it out (NOT AT 5AM). I am going to continue to push myself (NOT AT 5AM). I am going to set goals (NOT AT 5AM). I am going to continue to walk (NOT AT 5AM). I will one day run up the stairs like Shott does (NOT AT 5AM). I will one day be as fit as Shott is (NOT AT 5AM).
At 5am I will be sleeping!
K
Well, she said lets just do it in the morning and get it over with. I didn't want to! But she challenged me, well, actually she wouldn't shut up until I said yes!
Needless to say it was AWFUL! I am NOT a morning person at all (she is). She is also in a lot better shape than I am. So she was happy and giddy and talked, talked and talked. Well, she talked until I yelled at her to shut up! She walked the rest of the way with her ipod on, but still had that darn smile on her face!
Now I understand that I am 300 plus pounds and that I haven't exercised in a long long time and that if I just stick it out within a couple weeks the little bit of walking we did will be a breeze and I will be thanking her bunches for pushing me. But OMGosh NOT AT 5AM!!!!
Well as hard as today was I am sticking it out (NOT AT 5AM). I am going to continue to push myself (NOT AT 5AM). I am going to set goals (NOT AT 5AM). I am going to continue to walk (NOT AT 5AM). I will one day run up the stairs like Shott does (NOT AT 5AM). I will one day be as fit as Shott is (NOT AT 5AM).
At 5am I will be sleeping!
K
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